8th
worst summer of my life.
lost my boyfriend, 2 best friends, and consequently, part of myself. im now questioning who i am. am i a bad person? am i the cause of all of this? who am i even? and what am i doing. im so confused, i have absolutely no one to talk to. jenna wrote me a long letter saying she doesn’t want to be friends anymore. even my best friend abandons me. stevie abandons me and uses me over and over again for his own selfish wants. michaels done. my dad is moving to hawaii and doesnt even consider whats going to happen to our relationship. my mom makes me drive 1hr and 30 min away to stay at my cousins house for one night so she can invite some guy over. im just disposable to all these people that mean the world to me. i feel insignificant. do any of these people even notice that i am gone? am i worth anything to anyone? i want to be something to someone, ANYONE. i want someone to notice when im sad. i want someone to care. i want to be someone that is worth fighting for. i want someone to fight to keep me around, not just let me go like i was never there to begin with. apparently, i am nothing. im not anything
